Change

Times are a changin in my life. Oh how change gives me mixed emotions. I love the excitment and the what's gonna happen thing, yet at the same time, those are the very two things that cause me stress! Make sense?!?!? Looking for a new job is never fun or easy. It's something I don't look forward to doing, yet I wonder what it is I'll end up doing. Part of me thinks...maybe now is the time to return to school...but yet I think "am I crazy"?!?!? Bill's in school full time and right now or should I say for the last four years, I've been supprting him on his journey. Should I join him in that journey or would that be just too much? I know that whatever I end of doing, I want it to count. I want to make a difference in a good and important way. I know that I can make a difference anywhere and I know I made one at my old job, but I guess what I'm saying is I would love to feel that what I'm doing matters. I would love to do volunteer jobs! Unfortunatly, I have bills that must get paid and so full time volunteer work just can not be. I could do some on the side however! I always feel my best when I'm helping others. In my reality, that's what it's all about. :) I have written here for sometime and see what happens? Things change! lol I know it's part of life and one in which I'll do my best at handling. x