It's been a long while since I've written. Several reasons really....I'm busy, tired...facebooking and haven't had much to say. The Summer is flying by and max will be starting Kindergarten in Sept! My boys are growing up and I'm thankful for these milestones! Laila's been in my thoughts a lot the last few days. I find myself thinking about her on a daily basis, but sometimes the hospital stay and the days of her holding on so tight come back to my mind. I just wish i could hold her like I hold her sister. I wish Aliya could know her sister and make memories with her, I wish Vicki never had to endure such pain as a mother. I wish no mother had to endure this kind of heartache. There are so many that do. If only life could be all rosey...all the time. I guess though if it were, we would not appreciate the things we do have in the way that we appreciate them. Trials make us stronger and show us the love of God in a way that is amazing. I was shown so many things through Laila's life and death and I'm thankful. As the boys and I were hiking the other day, a beautiful gold and black butterfly went floating past us.... Laila was the only word that came out of my mouth. She'll always be a part of my life...not just a very heartbreaking part but a very very beautiful part as well.